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Can't seem to concentrate on my work... farny... been sleeping alot as well i think it's the weather... totally the weather.

Valedictory night was great!we had a jazz band playing througout dinner and i love the music. our theme was a fusion of jazz and salsa... didn't see where the salsa came in though... but anywayz i had quite a great time. Food was really great. like really yummy... lobster was good haven't had it for quite sometime and baked like that. We had a rendition of Chicago the movie. They were hot chics and i'll bet you the jazz players were like thinking. We get paid to perform at a girl's college plus this whoa!!! every performance should be like this man... haha kidding... anyway they were all young cute lads hahaha and i was telling julia which ones were cute and stuff. yeah yeah i know you guys are like going to say boy crazy hahahah. Oh well that's me.

I think i'm so fat now with all the good food coming our way in college. and oh by the way i've decided to stay in college for another semester if the head of college permits for another sem. haha cause usually the contract is a one year one. I hope she does. There are alot of activities lined up for next sem and i can't wait. With all the new freashers coming in and stuff... hahaa i'm not one anymore!!!

This coming tuesday would be the last event for all the freashers which would be some destress thing where we all come together to watch The OC while having cake and chips with dip. I tell you everything here is eat eat eat... and it's good and fattening food might i remind you that. so if i you see me getting bigger you should know why. They spoil us most of the time. except some crapy days where they couldn't be bothered to cook. That one totally cannot eat. 1 Thing which i'm so sick of eating is french fries. over here they call eat chips. anymore of it i think i'll puke. even when i eat them now adays it's usually like just a few pieces... can't take it anymore.. The one thing that i enjoy eating here is my own made vege sandwich which i usually have when food sucks. Like for instance tonight's food i think is gonna suck. usually they have sucky food starting from friday. except for sat lunches which is one of my fav. bbq chicken wings with noodles. that's their speciality. muhahaha. ok enough about food...

Exams are in 8 days time... better get down to work i'm working too slow. so yeah and i'm suppose to include exercise in my schedule... don't know how that's gonna fit in... most prob tomorrow... i've said that tomorrow word for like 2 days already this is the 3rd... ok ok can't type anymore i think i'm gonna go look at the roses and take some pics.. at least i've been outside not cooped inside my room then whole day... i'll get a headache toodles for now



Pheli

Not doing too good

ok this is so depressing... most of these new entries are like gonna be quite sad i guess with all the stress and all it's taking a toll lah so just bear with me for sometime till exams are over. haha... anyway was too sensitive about a situation which wasn't even big... and kinda blew it up into something like that. so yeah just had a misunderstaning with a friend. When i think back i keep questioning myself why do i always think too much... and the worst part is that i channel all my energy into such unnecessary things like this during such a crutial period. that's pretty sad.

anyway decided to stay on in St Cats mum did the calculation and said that it would be about the same so it's up to me whether i wanted to move out or stay in college. I've decided to stay because i kinda enjoy myself with my friends here. and moving out means doing everything by myself and it'll get pretty lonely and stuff... unless i'm moving out with a friend or something like that.

Did a crying session with mum yesterday as well cause too stressed out and yeah worried that i wouldn't be able to at least pass this time round. Initally wanted to do Honours but wtf can't even handle the subjects in this first sem how in the world am i gonna even do that man.

Oh well that's all for now i guess...

pheli

Stressed...

Hmm... i'm feeling rather emotional lately... don't know why... pms or something i suppose... and the insecurities of don't know wad... i guess when your not home everything goes haywire or something... been trying to study for exams, look for a place to rent and worry about all the other things that are coming my way.. haven't had much time to socialize. I'm having a hard time trying to balance friendship, and all the others as well.. and i guess that one of the things that i usually always neglect would be friendship. which is so important to me.

I find that i can't really confinde in many ppl anymore maybe their sick of listening to me i guess... where's my best friend... where has she gone to.... i miss you so much!!!!

I'm trying to learn how to take things not too hard... but sometimes it comes that way i guess. and it's quite hard not to take things hard sometimes especially when you're the one that's being hurt. It's difficult to put on a happy face and do something... that you end up closing yourself away from the world...

Things have not been very good since i've come here... the reliance on my best friends have taken a tole... hmm... sensitiveness has come on hard as well....

Oh well i guess that's why my mum sent me here... to experience all the shit in the world....

Busy Busy Busy

ok i know i haven't been updating this blog but oh well wad can i say... comp was on the verge of crashing and had to reformat the whole damn thing. and then the IT guy went on he's wonderful holiday that's gonna be a few weeks and cause of that i won't be getting my internet connection in my room after somtime.... unless my dear dear friend in room 159 would be so kind as to help me set it up on monday... cause of her super busy schedule i'm just praying that she'll be able to spare sometime. ok besides that.... everone's going crazy well actually more like me lah... cause i'm so bloody stressed out... with wad might you ask? exams lah wad else.... and also to add to my wonderful line of stress would be looking for a place to stay... moving out of college so yeah i've been trying to look for a place like mad! really... like looking at the notice boards everyday and calling up ppl....

Some ppl along the way has been irritating me as well... shall not mention names here... but he/she has been very helpful i know but sometimes there's gotta be a limit to all this stuff... help is one thing... I'M NOT A BABY!!! dont have to "hold my hand all the way!!!!!" All i need is information the rest i'll do it myself.... don't you get the farking hint!!!!

Sometimes i feel damn bitchy but things like these make me can't help it at all... why can't there be normal ppl in the world... then again where's the fun in that right the world would be such a super boring place.... i miss ppl at home... St cats ppl don't get me wrong you guys are fantastic too... you guys are there for me when i need you... heh... some sappy line *tear tear* ok anyway yeah basically that's wad's going on in the pass few weeks...

Tomorrow i'm going to view a house again... yes.... and the person insist to come... so come... wadever... i don't give a damn... ok enough bitching...


How's everyone in the other parts of the world... leave me a msg if you guys have got the time... haven't heard from some of you for quite a while...

This week was goddest week... and i can tell you everyone's going to go fat this week directly quoted from our dear sarah... haha... for formal dinner we had like chocolate chicken, chocolate pasta and other chocolate dip stuff... well basically you get the idea. and the whole week we had activities which are like quite cool... i simply love the express yourself workshop... i went for it twice... wonderful relaxing setting... imagine candles everywhere with nice dim lighting... soothing music in the background and just being creative doing an art n craft or just listening to inpirational tapes or reading a book... well we had like about 10 stations to choose from. my favourites were the pamper yourself station which had a foot massager soaked my feet in the warm water nice nice.... the other one of my fav was the reading coner... i love ronald dahl so yeah i was reading one of he's book that i've not read before... so it was nice... sipping milk and having a big nice cookie... yum!!!

Ok that's all for the updates from me for now... hahaha see i finally updated my blog... till next time


xoxo
Pheli

October, the fest month

hmm... it's been quite sometime since i've written an entry... some are asking why i don't update hahah one word lazy... been busy "trying" to study and stuff... i must get down to it... exactly one month from today it'll be the exams shit... starting to feel the paniky feeling....

Grandpa passed away on tuesday.. that was quite sad... though i didn't cry not even one drop of tear i guess this was coming ... so i was kinda prepared... didn't manage to fly back for the funeral but heard mum cried really badly... it's her dad after all... grandpa was like quite close to me when i was younger... being the 1st granddaughter... i was kinda pampered to a certain extent plus mum he's only daughter. so yeah. but oh well he was suffering and stuff... every thing was "breaking down" inside... and since he had he's stroke 2 yrs ago he's been like taking so many pills and stuff so yeah. At the age of 83 i guess it's the ripe old age... hmm yeah i will miss him and stuff and maybe reality check will take effect when i go back to vist my grandma in malaysia. so yeah...

Ok next topic, julia wanted to help me widen my circle of friends so she invited me to hang out with her friends. We went to robbies house to watch this show called " Kath and Kim" it's some cheesy aussie show... it's made to look stupid, cheap production series. i guess alot of the locals favour to the show cause they were so excited when it coming back and stuff... It was ok not bad but not really my type of my show kinda thing... heh.... we had lotsa snacks and robbie's mum was really warm and nice and stuff.. though it was a little tough talking to them.. don't really open up easily to new ppl but it was ok tried to talk to them and stuff.. we hung out for like about 4 hrs before siggy drove us back. New experience i guess so slowly slowy make more friends and stuff. ha!

Today i missed the october fest in school cause didn't really feel like going for it.. but i guess i should have gone cause i it'll be kinda like an eye opener and stuff... but i did go to the asian fest. hahaha told you it was like a fest month.. i missed the fest when it went to Uni so today's one was held at Curtin Uni. We were lucky to catch some college mates that have friend who had cars and gave us lifts to the place. It was no bad they had different items and alot alot alot of asian food which i missed so much. But the sad thing was that there was alot of malay food and very little chinese food and stuff... but it was ok. I had satay, koropok and some tim sum which i miss so much *yum* it was not bad i can tell you that except i found it a little pricy but then again it's aust wad do you expect. I'm just thankful that i was able to eat those food that i've missed quite abit. There were so many ppl walking around and stuff.. NO CUTE GUYS hahaha!!! but shaah thought there were but she claims that they were too tall hahaah... not my taste i guess. Came back about 10 and had food that we bought back and started chatting and stuff it was fun... we laughed and laughed... (good for stress) so yeah and massaging each other. just you know hanging out.

yeah that's basically wad's been happening since the last time... Oooooooooo i crashed my cute guy's lect how cool is that hahahahah bo liao right! ok gtg do some reading... till next time... if in mood may go see fireworks of the perth royal show? it's the last day... watch it from the train station so we don't have to spend money?


Pheli