Natasha's b'day

all of us with a few "extras" whoops...
Originally uploaded by Pheli.

It was the night that quite a few of us were looking forward to.. the 1st clubbing night of the semester.. i was looking forward to it to for some reason.. i guess it's the great company that i enjoy with these babes... and dudes... there were about 15 of us all in the group how cool is that!!

We left for justin's place around 8 to get some pre clubbing drinks and we took lotsa pics... it became our so called "makeover studio" and who's our great photographer? it's non other than our dear rosida! lol the pics that she took were really artsy and good i loved it... after hanging around for about 45 min it was time for us to catch a cab to paramount. we left in 2 cabs and the 3 other guys took the bus.. well they ran for the bus.. so poor thing... but oh well at least they got there in the end.

Some ppl were kinda smashed when they got there already cause they had too much to drink before they even arrived.. it was quite bad.. they couldn't even stand up properly. Lucy kinda threw up not long before she arrive she a too many shots i guess.. and i had to help her in the toilet.. but at least she's alright.. and after i came out.. diana got drunk and eunice was super super high... and i was like thinking to myself wow that was fast :S..and the dancing started so we danced and danced.. i danced my ass off lol now that was really really cool so yeah. the place was mostly filled with st cats ppl.. and it was pure fun! i grinded with a couple of ppl.. my usual fun thing to do.. ehehehe.. it was great! a fight broke out too... well a mini fight at least i didn't get to see it cause my back was facing them then i only saw the after effect which ended up with this girl's nose bleeding... now that was really bad.. we left the place around 1plus which was really early for a clubbing night.. on our way out sarah and i met simba!!! from trinity!! and his friend gave me this awww!! your so cute kinda a pat on the head... and i was like thinking *not again!!! nah but it's alright... kinda got used to it already but just kinda shock cause although i get that alot it's been sometime that i got that kinda so called " affection" or whatever you wanna call it.. then i met sarah's other friend don't know his name but he was quite friendly too.. just said hi and we shook hands... then it was time to leave the club and go for supper.. justin was like supporting me half the time cause my legs were so bloody painfull every step i took was like i just felt i was going to give way... lol!! i felt like an old woman man!! oh well it felt like forever before we reached out destination.we had supper at this chinese place called city garden.. the food was great! the best part was the tea!! it was Chrysanthemum tea the boiled one the the one in the packets with lotsa sugar.. i drank so many cups i enjoyed the hot drink :).. we had supper and then took a painful walk to the taxi stand and then cab home.. over all i should say that it was an okay night.. more to come but not too often...

pheli

Back

hmm lets see.... i'm back in hell hole again... this time with a super bad flu and it hit me that i'm actually a 3rd year student already!! can you believe it!! i feel soooooooo... old.... yeah and all the youngsters running around college... some are alright some are down right annoying... a few new ppl have moved to my wing and BOY OH BOY the noise level has increased... it's fine if it's like you know in the day but NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO... they just have to open their annoying mouths and go on and on and on near my door when this old woman is trying to take a nap can't they let the old one recuperate? this is the longest flu ever besides the time that i coughed for about a month... that one i nearly died but oh well it's over.

Anyway lets talk about school... school's been quite alright... fixed my majors and units and now i'm officially a pure econs student. I missed one lect on monday... cause i over looked how stupid was that!! and i was getting so frantic... but allswell now cause i finally found someone who's doing the same unit as me ehehehehehe.... so i can find out what's going on... but that doesn't mean that i can slack... I've started reading some of my work... cause i have learnt my lesson of doing my work from the first week of school onwards and i've even been label KS by a friend... but i guess that the only way to do it before it starts piling up again and i start getting stressed...

It's only been 3 days since school started and i'm already feeling the pressure... i'm pack on mondays and wednesdays both from 12 to 4pm nonstop... today i went through round one of it i was pretty tired... then i went crazy during dinner time ... that's the only way to keep me happy ehehe... but it's alright, sof says "i like to see you when your crazy" lol oh well... ahahaha...

Watched little britan and it's for now my fav show omg it's so stupid and funny i was laughing my ass off... well at least it's better than sin city which i fell asleep... so embaressing... there were ppl in the theatre i didn't even know... and yeah... pai seh... oops... This is is movie week... another moive that i caught was initial D it's SUPER BORING JUSTIN!! firstly it's in cantonese i can't understand a word and the subtitles i dont even think they are correct cause the actions do not tally to what they are saying plus it's not even in proper english my god... and cause it was pirated.. it's like i can hear the zip sound must be the guy checking on the camera or something not once but don't know how many other times man... argh... over 10 i would give it only like 2 or 3 FAIL FAIL FAIL... and Jay Chou doens't even look cute lah... next movie to catch would be Bewitched.. NOW BABY THIS IS MY KINDA SHOW... nicole kidman... she's da bomb!!

Okie i guess that's all for now... lazy bum signing off!!

Pheli

And the problem continues

just read chin's blog... and it reminded me of my situation as well.. both of us are having the same problem... so more or less we're in the same boat. mum's more like the "man" of the house...

I'm reminded at least once a week about our prob and it's been rather stressful on me let alone my studies in aussie. Everything i do i have to think super hard before i make a decision and every single time i worry. i guess that's why i'm putting alot of pressure on myself...

Ppl think that if you live in a big house it means that you are rich! but they don't know that it's not always the case... ppl that live in a big house are able to use their cpf to pay for the house but the day to day cashflow is the problem that is giving people problems.

Mum has alot of pressure as she's the one carrying the most burden. and to relief her stress she repeats the cash problem over and over and over again and again and again... i've heard the same thing almost for the millionth time. To think that by going to aust i could escape from it but even there i get to hear it. Last week i seriously felt like jumping out of the car when she repeated it again. i'm just so sick of hearing it. she dosen't know that it's putting more pressure on me... Dad on the other hand has major mood swings.. and he can just yell at you for no reason or alternatively he'll just keep picking on you until you rebutt then he'll make it sound as if it's your fault. Only mum is the one supportive of my education, that is why i feel so guilty everytime i don't do well.. i'm also reminded alot that my sis might not be able to get the same chance of studying overseas as i did and this makes me feel even more guilty like i shouldn't be in perth at all...

Whenever i go out i try not to take the car unless i'm coming back really late as taxi cost are major killers... i do feel guilty when i use too much petrol as well.. as mum would quietly top it up just to prevent my dad from making noise...

I'm basically no different from those family's who has only one parent working... *sigh...
gone are the days where things weren't like that where i could spend on anything i wanted .... but what is done is done... there is nothing we can do about it... just have to live with it...


Pheli

Wednesday

A few days more and it's bye to singapore and hello perth again. Something which i'm half heartedly looking forward to.. The only thing which I miss would be maybe the less humid weather and definately the friends which i have met so far.

Results were out last week... and it gave me the shock of my life... again... for finance... i didn't manage to pull through.. although this time i did better than the last, i guess it wasn't good enough to make it. I have decided it's time for me to change my major. Finally.. i know i should have done that long ago but i wanted to give it another shot.. looking at the good prospects that it would offer me in the future but if my brain can't take it means it can't no point forcing it already. I'd rather be happy reading what i have to read everything day rather than forcing myself to look at the bloody book. Bottom Line Finance and Me, is like literally burning myself to my grave. I've looked at the other majors that i would like to try out for and so far HRM would be the next best option. I don't really think that i really really enjoy or i really know how to write all the essays but i think i managed to do it better than my other finance units that i was struggling and stressing out like mad. Now there are so much admin stuff that i have to go through again... i realised that ever since i left for perth problems are always coming up nothing is ever smooth sailing even paying the bill could actually cause a problem. It's like god telling me that i'm not suppose to be there and that i should come back to sing and rot or something... time and time again i'm being tested for my will power and you just don't know how many times i have already wanted to give up, quit school and come hope... but after pet talks here and there i just keep pushing myself. I feel so exhausted going through this again and again. so hopefully this time when i change the bloody major i would manage to get through everything as planned.

I went shopping on monday well not really shopping but you can kinda say that.. cause eunice wanted to go for "retail therapy" and to catch my long awaited Mr and Mrs Smith. The shopping was great.. eunice managed to get some really nice stuff.. but we didn't manage to watch the movie cause when we were going to buy the tix the movie just started so oh well... too bad. We caught All about love instead.. i think that was the title at least. It was a sweet movie but something that will never ever happen in the real world i guess. It's too good to be true.

Many say that women have strong vibes and usually what they feel is most of the time quite accurate. Recently i sence a vibe from someone, the i wanna avoid you vibe... and it's been making me wonder what has gone wrong? but oh well i guess everyone has their reasons and if the person want to do that i respect it i guess.. you can't please everyone right? the only way is to move on and not waste your energy. I used to think that by putting in more they would actually tell you why and stuff but i realised that sometimes it's better for it to be left alone that way things are for the better i guess...

Thursday Balacava... watch E.I.C I can't wait everytime i get back here i just have to watch them at least once before i go back so anyone who wants to come along feel free!!


Pheli