my other idol

was watching E! entertainment and i just gotta put this pic up of her my other idol nicky hilton well besides christina aguilera of course! i'm so gonna purchase her products when i start working!

argh..

panick attacks are here to stay... i keep thinking about my results day and night... and i even dream about it. i feel so shity... argh! i just hope for the best... but i have this hunch that it'll be really really really bad... argh... when will this ever end...

back in sing...

1st day of hanging out with friends and all i can say is that it was great! salsa was great! thought i would loose touch of it... but oh well... ehehe... still much more room for improvement though...

my 1st paper

it really suck! i looked at it and i went oh shit.... managed to get some stuff out of my tiny brain which is most prob looking shriveled like some month old rasin... i just hope i don't have to take this unit again... i can't take it anymore!!! i wish god would help me now... only had 1.5hrs of sleep... i can't sleep thinking too much... i just hope my other units will go well i need it to i must... faith has been long lost since i started uni here...

tearing soon...

what can i say except for I'M SO SCREWED!!!!!

panick attacks + procrastination all over again... what a good combination... i've resorted to get out of my room so hopefully i'll be more productive argh!!!

caffine

i just wonder how much my body can take... i feel it's all pumped up with caffine which is not a very good thing but do i even have a choice... sleeping habits are getting abit bad... often waking up in shock... i tend to wake up at 6 something now adays due to the season change... the sun rises rather early... sleeping at around 2 and waking up at 6 is driving me nuts... i can't go back to sleep again cause it worries me ... not progressing as much as i want... very slow and i'm just so scared that i can't cover everything... some ppl have told me that stress is written all over my face even though i don't say much... i'm trying to keep it in so as to not let it affect others around me... even though how frustrated i feel inside... but it's for the consideration of others... i slept at about 2 and woke up around 3 this morning surprisingly wide awake... tried reading... but the heater has dried my eyes that i can't even open it properly... which resulted to me making myself sleep again... i know my body needs rest i'm trying to give it rest too. there is a high tendency that it's gonna break down soon... my presistant cough that comes almost every morning and other times when it's cold has not gone away... i'm looking forward to going home to recuperate... for now... i wish god would give me more concentration power... i need it...