i need...

i need the power to concentrate. it's just something i've lacked since a long time ago... my brain is like a fish... a short memory which i often dread... which means extra work for me. i wish my drifting would not happen so often.. and the speed in which i do things would be faster.. like those around me..

Time is very precious but i don't think i'm making every seconds worth enough. 1 month more to the finals i just hope that i'll be able to make it this time.. i need alot of help... something which i hope god will be able to provide me with. i need his help not to bother about the unnecessary and concentrate on what is more important to me now. I don't know why things affect me that easily but i have been trying to put it aside... failing to do so has caused me worry which just breaks the motivation to do anything. i don't need this in my life right now.

Ever wondered how there are so many people around you yet you feel alone. well i think most of us do over here. i have been feeling this way alot, i've done many things to make this go away but it would just resurface itself again. it's like some leech sucking the life out of me. around 6 weeks till home... i think i need that