PISSED TO THE MAX!

there i am each time thinking for months just to get a new top or something new of myself... saving everything as much as i can... even getting pissed at myself for falling ill and not wanting to spend money on myself. prefering to stay at home rather going out all the time back in aussie just to save a little more. and THERE SOME OTHER PEOPLE ARE JUST SPENDING JUST TO BEAUTIFY THEMSELVES... something which i've been longing to do. which girl wouldn't want to be attractive. and i can't but OTHERS CAN! WHAT THE FUCK! What's the point of me torturing myself so much when others just squander it away.